I'm not ok. I can tell you that much. I don't know when will be the day I'm gonna get another episode. But I know it's coming. And I'm not sure anyone can help me stop it. No, I'm not depressed. Am I? I keep telling myself that I'm not.

Am I heartbroken? why yes... yes I am. Do I regret what I'd done. No. I never do. Never did. But I'm pissed. Very... The asshole found another bitch to fuck barely a month after I dumped him. Yas told me... How much I told him I don't wanna know, he have to tell me all these just coz he said I should know. I have to know.

And I doesn't help that the stupid dumbo keep trying to view my friendster though it's on private mode. And on top of that he have the cheek to put some of MY friends as his featured friends.. Luckily danny'd deleted him.

And that bitch. I pity that bitch. But then again. she's a bitch all the same. So bitch. Bitch!

I'd tendered my resignation last friday. Long story. It's a shocker ain't it? But I have to leave before things gets worst. Or even worse, I'll get stuck in the job like most of 'em. I'd never intended to leave this early though. But yeah, I do things at random.

Ouh.. one more thing. I'm a fucking liar. I'm a FUCKING LIAR. yes I am. I am a liar a point where I have no fucking idea what was the thing I'd lied about. I have no inkling what I did or have done to have deserve all these. And I thought I'd meant more than this. I had enough though. enough.. I'd decided to take all the blame. Yes, I'm wrong. I'm used to taking all the blame. Been doing it for almost 26 years now. I don't want to fight anymore. I don't even want to defend, retaliate or do whatever anymore.

So this is what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna be.. wait.. I'm NOT gonna be around for anyone or anything anymore. I do not want to care about it either. Mati masuk kubur pun sendiri aper. Jadi tak payah lah sakitkan hati atau diri. So I'll be invisible ya. You all will get over it sooner or later. Y'all be fine ok?...

I apologize.. I beg all of u to forgive me, for all the wrong things I'd done/did/about to do to all of you. I'm really really really am sorry.. I don't know if you all will believe a liar like me. But even if you all don't.. heck... whatever la. I don't exist anymore ok? Forget me.

Well, I bet things can't get any worst than this...

Good nite all. Goodbye.